Trusting intuition - From one extreme to the next: Last weekend I created the painting "I Saw a Man and a Child Inside" (Acrylic on canvas - right), then this weekend I felt compelled to erase my chalk board to replace the quote I had there for yesterday's post with this image of a child in wonder (far right). I wanted to capture innocence today.
In a seemingly separate thought, all day today and even days before I kept thinking this might be the year to fulfill that lifelong notion of writing a book. It was a persistent thought yesterday and today. I bought an inspiring concept book yesterday when my son talked me into going to Chapters (not much persuasion required...it was more like "Can we go to Chapters?"). That gave me more fuel. On the radio I listened to a segment on writing that happened to be on today (Sunday), when I came home from grocery shopping...more fuel
...prior to that on Saturday I ran into an acquaintance at the art exhibition and asked him if he had been writing. His eyes lit up. The answer was yes. Funny how doing what feels right causes your eyes to light up.
When you think about it our life experiences are oddly connected, but nevertheless connected - From the success of last weekend's work I recognized that what got me there was an unfocused focus, a trust - similar to the unfocused mind of meditation (Deepak Chopra had spoken of that space as a moment of looking past objects in front of you to get to that unfocused clarity - I hadn't been doing that specifically or intentionally when I was painting - I was watching what I was doing, but now that I am aware of it the feeling was the same. The work came with an ease and clarity that seemed so natural and unlike any of my creative work before. I think that is the space of total relaxation that I have always known I access just before I wake up (the reason I have a note pad at the bedside), when all my creativity is so strong. This clarity of mind could be a major breakthrough for me.
Further to this sequence of events I recall seeing (a few years ago), in an online course on learning, how Alexander Graham Bell and I believe Einstein had this practice of letting go of a challenging problem to solve by going to sleep in their chair holding ball bearings in the palm of their hands, and then as soon as they fall asleep the ball bearings fall to the floor in a clatter waking them up instantly and then the answer to their problem is there. There has got to be something to that, but as with my example perhaps you don't have to go to sleep to tap into that creative pool of thought.
Going out on a limb here, but maybe my book is to be called Wonder-Full. Maybe, it is an adult book with the quality of a children's book. Maybe it gets us in touch with the part of us that has been on hold for far too long. I'm not going to over think this. Intuition has a better handle on this than I do...so lead and I will follow.