The lessons have been coming full throttle. Last week was a true test of endurance or other skills which meant there were no drawings or posts for that matter. If I could have quit my paying work I would have but let's get real everything passes you just have to rise above it at the time.
This morning I had this amazing dream of abundance here with me that I had not recognized prior to that. After I sat up and the dream was remembered I sat down again and I wrote, and wrote, and wrote until I said all I could from the experience (I finally figured out after all these years that I need to keep a journal by my bed and a pencil because when I sleep I am accessing my creative source that I forget when I wake). After all of that, what I had on the paper was both an answer and a conclusion to a week that kept me from creating, a week of procrastination. My realization is this - The work of the book illustration is essentially done. Prior to that realization I kept thinking I have to get it done, why can't I get it done, what will the next page look like, how do I start, life is challenging, work is challenging, there's not enough time - That was all self doubting self talk. I woke up with a realization today that the work was essentially done, and the sitting down to do it is my practice, my reassurance that I can do this. It is not the work that is hard. It is believing in myself, unconditionally, every waking day. That's the work. My preparation to receive success is first to believe it is already here. Mind blown. For this realization I am beyond words eternally grateful.